PTSD First Hand

PTSD.. POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER CAN BEGIN AT ANY AGE.ANY TRAUMATIC EVENT CAN CREATE DIFFERENT LEVELS OF PTSD.
POST MEANING THE AFTER AFFECT FROM ANY TRAUMA CREATING STRESS..BECOMING A DISORDER.
LETS TAKE AN EXAMPLE:A CHILD GOES THROUGH FORMS OF ABUSE, BE IT PHYSICAL, EMOTIONAL IT CAN CREATE PTSD. THE CHILD HUDDLES, CRIES EASILY, WILL CREATE IMAGINARY FRIENDS, BELIEVES THEY HAVE SUPER POWERS ETC,. THIS SHOWS THE VARYING DEGREES.
YOU CAN HAVE PSYCHOSIS FROM PTSD DEPENDING ON HOW YOUR MIND HAS HANDLED THE ABUSE, SOME MINDS ARE QUITE FRAGILE, SOME ARE QUITE STRONG, AlTHOUGH THE STRONG MIND SEEMS TO HANDLE MORE THIS DOES NOT MEAN YOU CANNOT HAVE FORMS OF THIS ILLNESS..
AS AN ADULT YOU MIGHT FIND WHY DO I JUMP WHEN SOMEONE COMES AROUND UNANNOUNCED, WHY AM I SO DEFENSIVE? WHY DO I CREATE WALLS FAST? WHY AM I ALWAYS TAKING THINGS TOO MUCH TO HEART? WHY DO I SHAKE? WHY DO I JERK AT RANDOM TIMES LEAST EXPECTED?
WHY DO I ENJOY CHATTINESS? WHY DO I WISH THE FIGHT? THE FLIGHT OR FIGHT MODE.. AH THIS IS DEFIANTLY A FORM OF PTSD..
I WILL USE A CASE STUDY FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND THIS MORE.. THIS STORY IS A HARD ONE BUT IT WILL TAKE YOU INTO THE MIND OF A PTSD CHILD.
I MET A CHILD WITH A HISTORY OF ABUSE. SHE SMILED, BUT SIDE GLANCED ME AS NOT TO TRUST, I KEPT UP JABBERING AWAY ACTING AS IF I DIDN'T NOTICE, ONCE I GOT HER INTO MY HOME; A SAFE PLACE SHE BEGAN TO BE REAL GESTERAL, TELLING ME STORIES IMMEDIATELY OF HER LIFE, ALMOST AS IF SHE WERE TRYING TO ENTERTAIN ME, AS I ACTED NON EFFECTED SHE WOULD GET UP IN MY FACE DEMANDING RESPONSE, AS I GAVE HER NONE SHE SCREAMED YOU HATE ME TOO, DONT YOU?
OF COURSE I REASSURED HER I LOVED HER, HOWEVER I KNEW IN MY MOTHERS HEART WE HAD A CHILD THAT HAD SOME SERIOUS PROBLEMS.
NOW LADIES I'M TELLING YOU OF AN EXTREME PTSD CASE. SHE WANTED ME TO TICKLE HER, AS WE TALKED AND I DID TICKLE HER SHE WANTED MORE, I BACKED OFF QUICKLY AS THIS ALSO WAS NOT NORMAL. LATE THAT FIRST NIGHT SHE WANTED ME ONLY ME, I LAID AND READ TO HER, SHE CLUNG TO ME, AS I GOT UP TO LEAVE SHE DEMANDED I STAY, NOT LETTING GO TO THE POINT MY HUSBAND HAD TO TAKE HER OFF OF ME. SHE CRIED, SHE JUMPED UP OUT OF BED TO TELL ME THE POKEMAN CHARACTERS WERE HER FRIENDS HAD COME WITH HER, AND SHE IN FACT WAS SUPER HUMAN AND COULD DO ANYTHING!! WOW I SAID WE'LL HAVE TO TAKE YOU TO A SPECIAL PLACE TO SEE ABOUT THAT, SHE BECAME EXCITED, SOMEONE WANTS TO KNOW ABOUT MY SPECIAL FRIENDS?? OF COURSE I SAID, YOU MUST BE PRETTY SPECIAL. THE NEXT DAY SHE CONTINUED TO STAND DIRECTLY IN FRONT OF THE TV NOT LETTING ME HAVE A MINUTES PEACE, CRYING, LAUGHING HIDEOUSLY ETC.. SURE YOU GET THE DRIFT. MY POINT IS SHE WOULD HAVE VISUAL HALLUCINATIONS, AUDIO, THERE WAS NOTHING THIS CHILD DID NOT DISPLAY, IN THE 3 YEARS I WORKED WITH HER AND MANY DRS , THROUGH MANY HOSPITALIZATIONS ETC.. WE CAME TO FIND OUT HER FATHER FELL IN 7 CATEGORIES OF ABUSE WITH THIS POOR CHILD. SHE WOULD DISPLAY SADNESS IN ULTIMATE DEPRESSIVE STATES, TURN TOTALLY NUMB AND VERBALIZE HOW SHE CARED FOR NO ONE , HATED US ALL, WE MUST DIE FOR THIS MANS ACTS, ALSO AT ONE POINT AT FIRST SHE WOULD DEFEND HIM ON A CONTINUED BASIS, IF YOU KNOW OF THE STOCKHOLM CASE IT WAS JUST LIKE THAT..SHE WOULD CREATE CHAOTIC SITUATIONS ALL THE TIME AS THIS WAS HER SAFE PLACE TO LET GO.. THERE WAS NEVER A DULL MOMENT .
I WALKED THROUGH THE COURTS IN HER BEHALF FIGHTING THE SYSTEM TO RELEASE HER FROM HER PARENTS AND IT WASN'T EASY ALTHOUGH I SUCCEEDED AS I KNEW I WOULD NEVER LET THIS BABY GO BK TO THIS HORRID NIGHTMARE.
I WON!!BUT THE REAL FIGHT WAS WITHIN HER. SHE ALWAYS THOUGHT HE WOULD COME BK FOR HER, KILL HER SHE WOULD CREATE SCENARIOS THAT WOULD HAPPEN ETC,...SURE I CRIED, I CRIED ALOT FOR THIS SWEETIE BUT I COULD NEVER LET HER SEE IT BECAUSE SHE WOULD DRAW ON THAT AND USE IT.. SHE WAS WELL VERSED IN MAKING PEOPLE FEEL BAD AS THAT IS WHAT SHE WAS TAUGHT EVERYONE IN HER PAST LIFE TREATED HER AS IF SHE WERE A PIECE OF FURNITURE.. SHE EVEN STATED THAT TO ME ONE DAY, WE HAD A GRATEFUL JOURNAL I WOULD HAVE HER STATE 3 THINGS EVERY MORNING AND EVERY NIGHT THAT SHE WAS GRATEFUL FOR, I TOOK HER TO PLACES TO GIVE TO OTHERS LESS FORTUNATE TO SHOW HER COMPASSION, EMPATHY FOR OTHERS , SHE HAD BASICALLY NO EMOTION , EMOTION THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO FORMATTED AT AN EARLY AGE, SHE WAS 8 WHEN WITH ME.
WITH MEDICATION AND TONS OF TIME AS SHE WAS ABUSED SINCE INFANCY TILL 8 THE , "FIX" SO TO SPEAK WOULD TAKE A LONG LONG TIME, MAYBE HER ENTIRE LIFE..WHO KNOWS, SHE WAS ABLE WITH TIME TO OPEN LIKE A BEAUTIFUL ROSE.
SHE IS 13 NOW, UNFORTUNATELY I HAD TO SIGN CUSTODY TO MY PARENTS AS MY ILLNESS BECAME WORSE BUT SHE FEELS SAFER THERE THAN HERE AS MY HUSBAND IS AWAY ALOT AND HER GRANDFATHER IS NOT THIS MADE IT BETTER FOR HER TO BE MORE CREATIVE, LEAVE THE DEVASTATION AT THE DOOR. HER BIGGEST PROBLEM IS COMPULSIVE, OBSESSIVE BEHAVIOR NOW FROM THE PTSD.
MANY VIET NAM VETS SADLY HAVE COME HOME WITH PTSD FROM THE WAR, ALL THEY SAW, HAD TO INTERACT IN, CREATED VARYING FORMS OF PTSD.
SO THE NEXT TIME YOU TALK TO A VET REALIZE WHAT THEY DEAL WITH ON A DAILY BASIS IT IS PURE HELL. YOU CAN WORK ON PTSD SO AS NOT TO HAVE IT SO BADLY, THERE ARE SELF HELP BOOKS AT BARNES AND NOBLE I KNOW I PURCHASED THEM TO WORK WITH THIS CHILD. IF YOU LIVE WITH THIS AND JUST STAY IN DENIAL, HOW ARE YOU EVER GOING TO FEEL BETTER? TO TALK ABOUT THE EVENTS NO MATTER HOW HARD IT IS IS THE BEST RESOURSE ONE CAN DO FOR THEM AND THEIR HEALTH CARE. FEEL FREE TO ASK ME ANY QUESTIONS HERE OR ON DEAR ADHERED.. I AM HERE FOR YOU .. GOD BLESS AND HAVE A BEAUTIFUL WEEKEND!!!!